Sorry it is about my individual issue.
I think I was born in tough, thanks to parents. At the age of 63, currently, I can spend every day without any worry of basic problem. However, of course, I can not avoid AGING. In Japan (I am talking about office workers), every year we have a chance to get a medical examination for the general points as for a rule. Honestly speaking, I feel fear to get an examination and listen to its report. Sometimes I needed to have further examination to check more…. and last year I got medical operation twice…..Fortunately both were executed successfully, and no need of worry of recur.
Even though, I have one more “hidden” problem.
Several years ago after examination, I got informed about possibility of “PANCREATIC CANCER”. Then I got suggestion to get more detailed examination at the specialize hospital, NATIONAL CANCER CENTER. Final result was “NOT A CANCER but a CYST OF PANCREAS. No need of any treatment, but just to survey if there is no growth of cyst, by an examination twice a year. Yesterday I went there to take it, and after two weeks, I will see the doctor to listen to the result.
For the long time until about 10 years ago, I never be cautious about the health. I never wish to be close to doctors. However, in these years I have a strong daily care, and highest appreciation to the MEDICAL WORKERS. Almost admiration! In fact I feel that all their attitude of treatments are DEVOTION. What can I do for them as a return ?
Probably another 20 years or so, I think I will keep this style. However, question is after that.
Most probably I want to leave all my body as NATURE FLOWING, or GOD’S INSTRUCTION. That means no examination, no treatment, no seeing doctors.
This is my idea at this stage. I got an interest to listen to the others, and how it change later !!
In any way, the most important point currently is TO SPEND EVERY DAY MOST SIGNIFICANTLY.
昨日健康診断に行った投稿をいたしまして、思うことあって追記をいたします。
個人の健康の話で申し訳ありません。
若い頃は私も健康に関心も薄く随分無茶もしました。しかしここ10年くらいでしょうか、毎年の健康診断を恐れるようになってしまいました。再検査の指示を毎回のように受ける。昨年は２回も手術を受けることになってしまいました。。。
しかたがないです。毎日の生活は非常に健康を意識したものに変節しています。そして医療従事者の方々への最大限の感謝。
しかしながら、ですが、一体この配慮の生活は、いつまで続けられるものでしょうか？
60を過ぎるようになってからはそんなことを考えてしまいます。普通に動くことができなくなり、介護が必要になってからの人生が自分にどれだけ意味があるのか。もちろんずっと前から、たぶん誰もが考えるようなことなのでしょうが、自分にとって切実になってきたのはここ最近です。
少しづつ考えを深めながら、一日一日を大切に生きていきたいと思います。
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